art crush.

this guy contacted me on myspace years ago to network for possibly collaborating on a video project one day.  then i randomly met him when i was last in portland, maine.  he is a tattooist, artist, genius.  i have biggest art crush on his work.  his aesthetic is loverly and someday i will get a tattoo from him.  he will probably require an entire leg to work on because he doesn't like doing small pieces... which is very exciting.

ladies and gentlemen, watson atkinson.

i have to admit...

mark linkous' passing has me feeling rather sad.

i haven't listened to sparklehorse in a long time.  i'm going to have to revisit them.

the very last thing before i go...

...thank you, sister.  i am lucky to have you.

Dance when you're broken open.
Dance if you've torn the bandage off.
Dance in the middle of the fighting.
Dance in your blood. 
Dance when you're perfectly free.

-Rumi

...just because you've forgotten doesn't mean you're forgiven...

paranoia

there is a voice inside my head, speaking to me from somewhere around my right ear.

it tells me little things throughout the day and i can't always discern whether or not these things are true.

i listen anyway.


yes, i am a voyeur. 

but i don't want to be watched.

and yet here i am, making my presence known.


the internet is weird and big, but a small world at the same time. 


ayyyy it makes me so nervous.

i know, i'll remove my name from that side bar... that will help.

i sing this song because i love the man...

today i found out that an old friend of mine died from a heroin overdose.  how many more people am i going to lose in such a meaningless way?

HAIL CAESER!!

i mean, we all know those romans were dirty, dirty, dirty... but here's more proof.

i am in love with this chick.

http://auriea.com/

there used to be this really awesome website called entropy8, which she was responsible for creating.  it pretty much was the original for dark aesthetics in organic web design, if you ask me.  the site is now for a video game she helped make, called tale of tales.  i've yet to play it.  don't know much about it at all.

anyway, her web design has kind of been an influence on me as a videographer.  i sent her a fan mail type of message on facebook today.  i hope she doesn't think that's creepy.  i just really think it would be awesome to collaborate on something with her in the future.

here's something else she worked on... a collaboration with another designer, zuper...

<----(from the entropy8 flikr stream)

word of the day

LIAR

"i've mesmerized you"

i am kneeling on the floor in a dark room.  you're there with me.  you take me by my hand and pull me into you and say the words "i've mesmerized you"... i tell you i had something to do with this too, and you smile down at me.

who are you and why are you coming in my dreams.

this kind of blew my mind... thank you stumbleupon.

bear with me.

i'm incredibly frustrated over my blog layout.  expect an overhaul in appearance coming soon.

meanwhile, the refurbished digital camera i purchased from ebay is acting as if it's about to stop working.  i haven't even had a chance to purchase a memory card for it.  i've tried several different batteries from my battery collection, close to none of them seem to give the camera enough power to turn on.  the ones that do have enough power to get the camera turned on show up on the screen has having only a bar left, just before the camera turns itself off again.

i am seriously annoyed.  i was looking forward to using that camera this spring.

it is a tough row to hoe.

in my heart of hearts, i long for a companion who is growing with me... stand up, god dammit.  get out of bed and rub the crust of years of illusion from your eyes.  wake up and stand next to me.