red-tailed hawk has been hanging out lately....

 i dream i am sitting on a dock with my sister. surrounding the dock is an area that is a farmer's market, and i see the loading docks for all the stands at the market. looking up i see two skinheads jump on the roof of a warehouse, one is dressed in a butcher's apron and has no hair, the other has long bangs and jumps down to a lower roof that's closer to me. a red-tailed hawk swoops down and lands on the ledge of the roof with prey in its talons, it starts tearing up a piece of meat and looks right at me. then i look into the water and find a huge butcher knife. it's rusty. i turn it over, and a very murky rendition of "the last supper"(the painting) is on the other side. i look at the handle and it's made of wrought iron, it looks more like a doorknob...it's like holding a door knob, but the door is the blade. after seeing the painting, i decide i have to put it back in the water, and almost fall in when i do. my sister is grasping onto my right leg to prevent me from going all the way into the water, but my head is submerged and i'm watching the knife sink deeper and deeper towards the bottom of the ocean. i can see everything under the water, it's extremely clear. part of me wants to sink into the water, but part of me is attached to my sisters hand holding me up. it's like i'm pulled between the two. end of dreaming.